time wrap to my past O_o

i went to karaoke :) it was amazing!!!!

onto the REALbusiness....i was on twitter today(im normally not)and i found some PRETTY interesting things....like that i haven't updated a tweet in two months(up until yesterday).i decided to take the time to look upon what i HAVE tweeted in the past.it came to my attention i made the twitter account after 5-6 months of dating one of my ex's to use as a place and way to vent because his family and friends of ours could've seen my facebook and told what i was saying on facebook to him to make my relationship more miserable than it already was.basically meaning that twitter was ONLY used at the time to help me vent about my crappy relationship and it was a place him,his family,or his friends(or my friends that he knew) knew about....which therefore means that they couldnt repeat anything i was saying on twitter to him and he couldnt yell at me or freak out or something....or my friends couldnt freak out on him then have him freak out on me for them freaking out on him....

am i making ANY sense?

if im not im EXTREMELY sorry....im really hyper.

but after reading ALL THOSE TWEETS i kind of wish i would've talked to somebody or gotten help or SOMETHING instead of spending almost 2 years with someone who treated me like sh*t.the majority of them were deleted.i at LEAST saw my relationship heading for disaster at some point(from what i saw in my tweets).i think i was in it for so long was because i was scared or something.it WAS a crappy relationship.it makes me ponder what was going on in my head at the time....because i kept going back to him.i kept getting hurt and treated like crap.the majority of that was repressed until i read those tweets....now it just doesnt leave me alone.

at some point it will....until then....sleep is what needs to be dealt with

posture....snow....wendy's....band....that works :)

my friend jordy and i have a thing now.every thursday we are going to wendy's, getting chicken sandwiches, a frosty, and maybe fries, and sitting in the schoolk atrium just talking and om nom noming on our food.its pretty amazing!we have a thing lmao.that sounds dirty xp.OOOHHHHH WELLLL <3 no longer can i have a bad day on thursdays.jordy is just to freaking epic when she's around to not be in a terrible mood. Like today i drove our butts to wendys for food and i got a parking spot RIGHT ACROSS the pec center!THE CLOSEST I'VE EVER BEEN!!!!and then what i did is i stood in a spot that was across from mine so she can move her car lmao.is that even legal?!oh well.i did it and it was funny and dorky.the only thing i could think of was for her to get her "bitch ass" over to the spot quicker so someone didnt try to kill me for the spot. oh oh oh and earlier today IT WAS SNOWING....and not just like regular snow it was like the really mad snow that comes down really fast and really hard and covers everything in like a split second.it was COLD and something that i didnt need while i walked my tired butt from class to class to car.it wasnt fun but i did it and almost wrecked like 4 times on the way home and the last time i turned i slid down my street to basically my driveway.it was the most fun yet scariest thing i've encountered all day.i porbably wont be doing it again though.changing the suject again tomorrow night is karaoke!thank the lord i've been SOOOO EXCITED to go!i've also been excited for band as well....i get so excited when it comes to anything music related.is that sad????or even bad????like i get all bubbly and excited and really really eager and impatient.almost like a little kid on christmas waiting at 6 am to open presents.now i feel like such a total weirdo.i've come across this bad habit by the way that i get whenever im in band class.i have to sit straight up and on the edge of my chair.i HAVE to.i can't even tell you how many times i've "fixed" it and gone back to it again.it's just weird!maybe its because im getting ready for the posure for band which is why i do it.i've been such a chatty cathy lately too.im not sure why but i totally am....or feel like one.its now going on 6:15 pm.class starts at 6:45 pm.i think maybe i should close this up post to facebook and go get my seat!

btw....i can't wait for the week long thing to end lol i want my last name back </3