broken once broken again.

wow.it hit me today that im bottling up so much.how much i fear people.and how many secrets i have all to myself.im not sure how i've ended up this way.im not even sure if im happy anymore.i want to be.i want one person to listen to me....to let me spill everything.even if they dont understand.i need someone i can trust.who would that be?im not sure but i hope this all can be "fixed".i seem to be broken for too long....